The third week of the month and a brand new day of the week had ended, well enough to made me missed out 1 class meeting, japan BBQ2010. however, it did allowed me to spend more time on my piled assignments, studies and lastly, a time eating "tang yuan" with my family later on!!!! I'm certainly anticipating that! haha

Now, leaving that aside, i was playing puzzles with my sister few days ago when i realised this.

A puzzle is like a story.
if you manage to see the picture out of the puzzle, then you somehow manage to "see" the picture of the story.
An uncompleted puzzle spells the continuation of one's lifelong story.
However, no matterwhat, the story would end with its last piece.
How it ends would purely depends on YOU, yes you!

For me, i guess some of my puzzles would be completed in quite a while and all i have to do now would then be to frame them up, leaving it until the next story telling session. Trust me, it would be several OMG stories told. haha

Now, im worried of putting the last piece to one of my puzzle, wonder how i would feel...Haiz.

" A picture speaks a thousand words", for mine, it would all be long and hopefully everlasting stories. YEAH! let it be!

What about yours?

~ZINC

Another day treasured

Today's a wonderful day for me as i got a rare chance to go on a sports gathering with my cousins.

I guess it would be partially due to the influence of the SEA GAMES. hehe
TEAM SINGAPORE did a fabulous job! i manage to sing the national song with them infront of my tv set for quite a number of times! OMG, i simply love that! hehe.

Now, back to my gathering, it was a really enjoyable one for us!
Being able to spent time with my cousins, enjoying ourselves over the basketball games and badminton, not forgetting the delicious home-cook delicacies by my aunt was something i longed for! you know! haha

Today's gathering, at many parts of it, brought me back to the wonderful memories shared between us, in the past. it's sure has been a long time since we initiated gatherings on our own!
The times where all of us come together chatting, sweating after games, eating and drinking over tables of delicacies was numbered every year. This was also why each time we met once, we longed for another.

i don't know whether this may be true for all of them, but i know all of us enjoyed the times together, right? haha ( OMG, i seem to be forcing them t say yes)

Certainly, i do anticipate the next gathering and for the future too as for me, it's something which i want to have constantly perhaps because, they are my first priority. They, are the ones who are the closest to me, no matter what happens, guiding me along, giving me encouragement, making me enlighted and happy in many ways.

At a similar stance, if not for them, i may not have been so enriched within and there might not even be the huixian, you see now. The credits for my sucess and happiness all goes to them too, not forgetting my friends, peers and teachers whom i am deeply grateful to.

OMG, that paragraph seems eerie now, as i look at it. i seem to be saying my last speech.
that's not true, i have a very long way to go...... haha

Last but not least, before i end my post, i would like to specially thank one person. A very special being to me, whom seemed to be tasked to accompany me when im lonely and play with me since im little. Thanks a lot! All these years, thanks for all your care and help that you have given me. It had made me realised how much more fortunate i am, to have another person like you around me. Thanks JY!

~ZINC

Decision making is tough

Decisions, to me, seem hard to make! it's not as easy as one may thought it to be.
i guess i can't really make decisions/ choices that would benefit all?
"if i chose that, this will happen, that will happen. how?"this was what that had always came into my mind all along.
when would there be a time where my decision/choice can benefit all?
JUST WHEN????????

Vexed now but i know all this comes with one thing, that is " you are not prepared at all".
"How can you always be doing this? break it, make everything organized within the given time huixian!!", it knock and knock, on the door of the little red beating house for now.

NOW NOW, i regret my self decision of postponing the NE treat. ARH!
it's just half an hour ago that i made my decision.
YES, i guess i placed my priority wrongly.
All i can do now, is to apologize, repent on my mistake and make sure the treat would come out nice at the end, from the oven.
OMG, thats seems to be very difficult, hard......
haiz...
For now, how i wish i could change my quality of indecisiveness to something else that would bring joy and laughter to everyone....

leaving aside my " complains", chengyang, thanks for the bball, if not for it, the game wouldn't be possible and shao qiang for the help too!
Also, not forgetting, rui ting, jiao min and hui shi for having me to join them for a wonderful game of BBALL and salonee, for guiding me through Far East plaza!
Last but not least, my DAD who had been waiting for me to get my sleep. haha

~ZINC

Thanks everyone!

Thanks for giving me your well wishes today.
no matter whether it is a comment on facebook, a SMS to my phone or wishes with your presence, thanks a lot!

Thanks to all who had come all the way to my house to celebrate with me, making this birthday a memorable one with all of your presence.

Thanks to my family members and all my friends who had given me support, help, encouragement when i am feeling low or even at times where i lose control over my emotions.

Thanks a lot! i do hope that in future, 31/10/2009 shall not only be the day where everyone celebrates Halloween. instead, let it be another time where all of us appreciate the presence of the people around us. ho kay?

after today, i do think that i should improve on my english. i seem to be getting the wrong message across for sometimes.

if The "fist size" red organ would to respond to one particular question with a calm mind again, of all the choices given, D.

ZINC

Got to know about the results of the hardwork that was put into my studies.
Although it was a pleasant answer from god but that hadn't livened up my spirits for the day.
I was tired after the amazing race i guess. thanks for the congratulations received from all.
People around me are all falling sick especially my family members.

Now, one thing that i know is, in my studies, i wouldn't have come this far if i didn't received help from the teachers, friends, be it in school or outside school.

My journey in evergreeen had started 3 years ago when i first entered the school for the briefing and now, at the blink of an eye, i am only left with one year. Nothing more, Nothing less.
What's left might then be the time to improve on the weak chapters of each subjects, getting ready for the important year ahead.
Besides that. it is also the time for all of us to appreciate the people, things around us as i heard that it would be a "fast forwarding" year ahead.

For the CCAs, we would have to let go of them the next year. Before we pass the baton to them, i believe we would need to tecah and pass on to them all the necessary skills and information.
Come to think of my CCAs, i felt a lot more elated nowadays as i saw how my NE team work together as one with the several chnages, making the NE amazing race a good one.
For the race, i really hope that the lower sec classes had at least learnt something from it.
Besides, although it might be late now, i would really want to thank the interact team, AVA team, NE comm team, my NE AMB, the canteen stallholder and MY PARTNER, ismahfaris, for all the effort put into the race!

For CO, Percussionists, Thanks for all the things that your have given me! YOU GUYS ARE GREAT PEOPLE! talking about passing on skills and information, although i can't really pass on much skill, i would be willing to help should you have any problems in your personal life or studies. i guess i can at least help a little. haha

friends, families, juniors, relatives, pals....
Stay healthy, JIA YOUs in your life!
it's not good for anyone of your to fall sick!

-ZINC

TOUCHED by what i see.

On thursday, i never thought that i could enjoy my thursday afternoon so much.
Not by laughing at others moves but by experiencing those touching moments...

Our school organized the yearly interclass games across the whole level and for the Sec 3s, it was interclass soccer. It was the first time i enjoy watching it. Perhaps it was because the players are my classmates and friends. All of them did a really good job. Their tears, their sweat, their kicks ( i mean in the game), their shouting, all showed their enthusiasm towards this games.

Although it was the first time our class girls are competing in soccer, they really did a fantastic job! they are my IDOLS! They could maitain their stamina and steadiness for the whole 3 matches unlike me, who might need some food after 2 matches? haha
The team is competing again on the coming monday morning for the first position.
GOOD LUCK everyone, what your are facing is no longer your competitor on monday, it would be, i guess the support from all of us! Yes, no matter what happens on monday during the match, you all would be receiving our endless support, even me, at Movers and shakers would also present you with all my support and luck till the end.

Besides them, at the other side of the court, it was where all of us i believe, not only me, was touched by what we had seen. The fighting and defending spirit present despite knowing what is going to happen and the laughter within throughout the 2 challenging and exciting matches, how i wish i have a camera with me at that time to snap down those touching moments. They had played well in those matches, no matter what the results of the matches might be, right?

Now, shifting the focus back to the times in class, i am too touched by the people around me who had been constantly giving me support throughout this hectic week. For what i am going to face next week, i am going to put up a strong and brave side of me as i take them all up before the week's ending. However, at the same time, i am going to steal some time from my scheldue to play and enjoy with my dear friends!


~ZINC

Fever bonding, now i longed for it.

Charity Bazaar was held yesterday in our school.
To a lot of our schoolmates, especially the main 6 handling the stall, today is very important as it was the day where they would be tested on their ability to get customers; EVGians to patronize their stall. This is NOT EASY!

Besides, the main 6 managed to have everything SOLD OUT! isn't it great?
For the preparation of this Charity Bazaar, there were many discussions, effort put in and also times where many of them had different ideas and suggestions for certain issues, resulting in the start of quarrels.

All this, can be resolved with patience, acceptance, tolerance and several other qualities kept within. i experienced it, i went through it and it is really true.

It is easy to start but how easy it is to resolve all this with above requirements?

Each and everyone of us have different perceptions towards every issue, you may have thought that he/she is ... which in the end, affected your view towards an issue when this particular person is involved. In short, your lenses in viewing things is simply polluted. This is it, which i believe is the cause of the conflict that strains the bonds which hold all of us together.

Presently, it seems like there is an endothermic change happening around me. This really angered me as i see how me and some others fail to strengthen the bond within and instead break them up so easily like how one break a glass bowl.

So what should i do? Should i continue be the listening ear that hears each and others complains and witness how eventually, each of this had strained the bonds within. i know i should do something about it whenever i would came across it but i am getting tired as i do this continuously for a long time and my tolerance level had really reached the max!

At many times, i really want to clear all these things to make my heart be a little lighter. This had never happened before all this years in schools, be it primary or secondary. have i given too much chances or have i take the things around me too lightly that all these are constantly happening around me without fail?

Haha, now i am thinking of escaping to somewhere to rest since the exams are over. Perhaps, falling ill is the best solution to all the situations that is happening. fever bonding, yes, this might be it! haha

Exams were over but the REAL BATTLE in our heart had just started.
That is, the battle to control ourselves, preventing ourselves from being severely affected by the attacks (results of the tests) and to remain calm and steady at all times.

OMG, now that i am talking about it. this is hard!
i remebered the time when i cried was not due to that kind of attack.
But mainly due to the relationships with the people i met.
To me, i guess the bonding between us is of much more importance, right mary?
haha.

Sometimes, i realized i am rude when chatting and doing things with the people around me.
The cut made, was to reduce my worries and stress that i had been feeling all this while. it may not be so after the cut, but what i really hope is that history doesn't repeat itself.

controlling one's emotion seem to be very important as it shows that you are strong.
but showing your weak side for a few times by dropping a few tears, might not be a bad idea.
Afterall, all of us are people with emotions and hiding it within yourself would only led to more pyschological problem. with that, i think i might have to learn those skills again, haha.

counselling seems to be harder this days as my heart is no longer concentrating on helping others but on what will happen to me in several situations. ahh... that's bad right, my friends and families are going to suffer now. haha

During this period of time, praying for passes for all subjects especially my languages, sciences and humanities seems to be more imporatnt than anything else. seeing some of them dropped tears and sighing over them not putting more effort and i can't seem to do anything about it...

-ZINC

Today isn't a really good day, isn't it?
Although it is teachers' day but i didn't manage to meet my pri sch teachers.
i really miss them and i know they miss me too, right? haha
Perhaps it was due to certain reasons, i started to lose patience and trust on others.
Guiltiness and anger also started developing in me when i saw some of my seniors.

Why can't i make NE be just like before? and this is it that had made me to have typed that message to the VPs. i guess i wasn't that clear in my content as that message wasn't directed to specifically anyone. it was a general note from me to the VPs, telling them that i am very concern and serious about their attendance in meetings. hmm... if you find that the meetings would be meaningless, do tell me, so that i or faris, can improve on it and make it more meaningful. you can drop me a message if you don't want to talk to me face to face.

i think i seem to be scary nowadays, well, that's me. i guess only some of the percussion members that went through trainings with me before the syf knew this and i really hope that i wouldn't have to use that identity again. I HOPE.

-zinc

In a wink of an eye, this week is finally going to be over.
sometimes i am really troubled on whether i am doing or saying the right thing everyday.
No matter how scared or worried one is, is it always true that one should overcome it with a smile, even at the extent of failing but not ever once succeeding?
The experience of failing continuosly and not succeeding is certainly not good for that would be the time where one's confidence is severely affected. however, on another perspective, this might be a turning point for all.

However, how high is one's esteem, such that one would never give up despite countless setbacks and not even the tiniest success? That is hard right? Yeps. i agree, but it may not seem to be hard afterall as at the very end, some of us still manage to overcome it hard and well.i believe that is the power of determination and the will to succeed in which many of us including me are seeking for, right?

hmm...determination. i have... i am determined to eat all i want everyday despite the fact that my pocket might be burnt one day. The will to succeed,i definitely have it when it comes to eating well. haha.

if i would to be lacking of anything, i think i might be picking it up with the thought of food. Now, i believe the food around me is the drive that is taking me through. should i thank them? haha

- zinc

SMILE!
NO MATTER WHAT HAD HAPPENED, DON'T FORGET YOUR SMILE!

To start off, its been a quite hectic and not well prepared week for me,i guess as i recalled my math test.
Most of the things didn't seem right for me for a lot of times.
NEXT WEEK:
PHYSICS SPA.EMATH.SS.GEOGRAPHY.AMATH.CHEMISTRY.

of all, i am most afraid of the physics spa.

For once, there were thoughts running in my mind on what would happen on my SPA. would i be able to finish it? Would i fail it? i certainly hope not. i hope and pray that all the tests coming up would bear good results.

What are friends for? So, what are tests for? have you thought about it? haha
Hope that i wouldn't disappoint or hurt anyone in any other ways anymore.

trust

its been a long... time since this blog had been activated with my post. right? haha.

how well do you trust your friends or rather surroundings? how well do they trust you?

have you thought about it? well, if you have not, think about it now then as it seem to be very important to some.

now, talking about my life in school for the past few days...

The teachers in our school are simply the greatest teachers in the world! i believe one would never be able to find such good teachers anywhere except in evergreen. haha

however, although they are good, they are also let down by some of their students such as the one that is posting now. It was this week that made me felt how much i have let some of my teachers down for the past few days? weeks? or even the past few months!

Not only that, my friends, family and even classmates too...

They are also the best people in the world together with the teachers, staff of the school as they are the ones that are always giving me guidance in my life, making my living the best out of my life!

Thanks! the ZINC element here would n't have been living so well without all of your. Thanks a lot and a lot!

JIA YOUs in your life!

ZINC

refreshed? i think you have drunk peel fresh!
why didn't you share it with me. JEALOUS. haha

This few weeks had been a rather hectic week for me with things causing me to be taken aback. however, this range of time i would say, is rather a period of time that had taught me and had allowed me to know and treasure the people around me and lastly the things around me.
From me, i wouldn't say that i had treasured all the things and people around me all the while or even to have known that i actually have so much friends which cares about me all this while.
Now, i think i would really have to thank god for making me have a high fever for so long as thinking about it, this fever had really bonded my family and made me realised that i am actually not facing all the happenings alone and im really grateful for that! (ohs, mary me too.) haha

In school, i may have many identies on me but please believe me. i am what i used to be and i truely hope that whatever things i may have done, it wouldn't hurt any of the people around although i know it will. Anyways, if you don't agree on any of the things or decision i have made or done, do tell me as i do not wish to have it be the culprit that strains our ties.

So, my friends and families in the world (including the friends and families in JAPAN) , i seek forgiveness from all of your for the wrong doings i may have done and i hope that the ties or bond that we may have individually or as a group would last for ETERNITY! okay? hmm... you have no choice but OKAY for this! haha.

ZINC

it was a long day for me today and yesterday.
tomorrow marks the end for term 2, semester 1.
i truly hope that it would be a good one.

i have been thinking this days of an issue bu i think i have not had a solution to it.
As instead, i was packed up with all kinds of things that you can think of; trust me, its true.
i really hope that i would be able to find that soon.
Arh. I'm feeling desperate for it men!
ha ha.

for now, i really anticipates the day where i would be able to be the real me, the one that is able to at least find them to search for something which i had wanted since a long time.

haha-ing and eating is a good way to relieve all those unwanted things in your heart!

-ZINC

FINALLY, i have finished the proposal.
through this proposal, i had learn, understood and seen certain things.
well, i am certainly enriched.

To all my fellow comrades,
all of you are leaders too, its just that i may have a higher position but that does not mean that i am the leader of all of you.
hehe. RMB that. all of you would have your own team to lead...
haha

NOW, i have only one foal, that is to revive what i had strained and not do things that i would regret anymore.
seriously, i really regretted on what i have done or said on friday.
sorry to all my friends and the people present.
apologies.

anyways, there is another week to go before the school ends for term 2 and i really hope it would be a memorable week. so let's work towards it men!

ZINC! JIAYOUs in your life!

ah ha not adha.
haha.
i have thought of what i would want to post.
the MYE was like a flash of forked lightning that awakes me to treasure the friends and my families around.

At the beginning of the year after i had attained certain positions, i realized that mary have changed and had not treasured what she have had causing her to lose certain things that she had as she worked for her aspirations.

regretful? YES SHE WAS as although she got what she deeply hoped and wished for but she realized that upon the journey of attaining her hopes and wishes. she had strained something in which she had always treasured ; her kinship and friendship.

hmm. so HOW? what should she do to make it be an everlasting knot that would never be loose and broken. well i guess mary would have the determination to work towards her goal of reviving her relationship and kinship right? haha, you never knows.

ZINC

viewed alot of blogs instead of revising and completing my homeworks.
DREADS.
i have 5 test next week and a emath quiz on properties of circles on thursday.
crappy.

we had a rehearsal and performance at the hall today.
performance wasn't good, everyone was rushing. hmm. maybe they are too nervous i believe.
haha. but the practice later on was of much fun and laughter. it felt as if SYF is a few months away although it is just tmrw。

wonder what would happen tmrw.
would it be a sucessful one?
i really hope that it would and my dream of having him enjoying glory with us at the SCH would come true.
and i hope that we would be able to get at least a gold for the effort we had put in.
pls. give us a gold can?

anyways. EVERYONE RMB TO RELEASH YOUR LATENT POTENTIAL AND DO YOUR BEST TMRW! n THAT INCLUDES ZINC.
haha

-ZINC

zz

looking at these two pictures, i was reminiscent of the things that i had learnt and accquired during the japan trip last november. i don't know why but presently i feel like doing nothing but to relax myself by reminiscing and taking a slower pace towards my life to notice the wonderful things around me.

friends in it are great people who stand by me whenever i need any help especially the NE AMB who continues to stay loyal to the cca by not quitting and instead try to make it better with their commitment. i really appreciate that and hope that NE AMB would strive with you people and the sec 1s who would be coming in. For now. the only thing i would look forward to might be the new sec 1 NE AMB. till this day, i am really very tired of it. i need a LONG LONG rest before i can come back strong, real " strong" this time.

my friends don't worry, i promise i will come back HIGHER, STRONGER AND BETTER THEN BEFORE. but, hehe in the meantime i dont know what i will do. haha

JIAYOUs in your life!

ZINC

100th post.

should i celebrate it? why it might be lame
but it kind of make me feel better right?
haha

i CHANGED.
arhs. why do i change this way?
haha.
its good cause through all the events it tells me that im not eligible for a post of a leader.
but anyways i believe im going to be lenient and ignorant towards some issues?
yes ignorance might sometimes do you good. huixian
yes i think im too petty sometimes especially today.
yes. ok
from today onwards, ZINC would go through endurance and patience towards things.
SURELY I WOULD GIVE IT A TRY.
i would endure everything for another 2 week
so, EVERYONE esp CO MEMBERS.

pls. i would really want a GOLD awarded at the stage with the conductor this year. PLS

ZINC

i Guess my expectations for them were too high. i am sorry if it was really hell but i guess i still have a lot to learn, right?haha

a lot of learning, self reflecting to be done i guess.
haiz, why is there a sense of emptiness when i am crowded with people?
things around me are so unreal and frustrating.
guess i have really lost what i had had all along.

so how, how should i continue my life without them?
well, allow the brain of mine to think and develop solutions by resting then.
night.

ZINC

hmm. didn't feel good for the start with the pressure of the homework left uncompleted i guess
but somehow not knowing any reason. my day was brighten up?
hohoho
it was strange and what was even strange was that i was so hyper until i dont know how i am going to continue and face the coming day

perhaps i have really gone too fast in my life. very very fast this time.
THINK i need to slow down and enjoy my life as i go.

ZINC

feeling great today?
if not call for ZINC!

had CO yesterday. realized a lot of things though and had the urge to say...
anyways it was somehow an enjoyable one at the end.
but for percussion, there is alot of improvement to be done.
so percussionists WORK HARD!

life is something that is unpredictable, one cant predict its future but one can definitely work hard towards its future!

A MATHS test is on its way knocking on the door to our little brains, on its way to squeeze our brain juice. it will be a difficult test i predict so WORK HARD. i had realized the importance of working hard after i was reminiscent of the times in my primary school times when i entered a competition, with last minute preparations.

so in order not to be regretful of the results of the coming future, let's WORK HARD and JIAYOUs in our lifes!
btw, back to the position at the back but felt different, lonely i guessed.

ZINC

yo! is what i want to say but i just couldn't get hypen up.
today wasn't a good day at all.
didnt manage to do well for physics and social studies and was told that our class did badly for our MT common test.
DIE.

HAIZ. even though it was the end of the closely packed atoms. oops no EXAMs.
but i felt that it was just the start. just the start of the torment that this ATOMS would give.
haiz. the a maths test that is coming is so worrying that i dont know how i should start preparing.

hmm things are certainly not getting better each day as times goes by
" you can never predict the things and happenings"
so ADAPT is the word.
sometimes adapting might be hard at first but after a period of time it, you might get it.
hmm but why must she stop me and change my surroundings before i have finishing adapting?
haiz.. JUST WHY?

anyways i do hope that our CO TEAM will be able to share glories at the singapore conference hall with ZHANG and that i would get good results for the common test!

ZINC

will it last?

through all this days, i just dont know why.

im having mood swings all day and had a strong feeling that i am not what i used to be.

perhaps i havent really adapt to the environment which i need to be.

but i know that im very VEXED.

dont know why but i guess i think i need a break.

a very long LONG break.

HOPED that it would last forever and i would be able to adapt to it soon.

but im really tired to bother about it after such hectic weeks.

SO, let nature take its course.

haiz.

ZINC

how should i start?
well i had started.
lol.

wasn't really feeling good today probably because today is single-awareness-day.
haha. i got listen to natasha's presentation lehs.
had CO practice in the morning with the new conductor.
it was today that i realise the good in him.
how i hope that our school can meet his standards and he could be our conductor for good.

he is really good de lor.
at least better than our usual conductor.
it was his practice that i realised that we had progressed as each day goes by and that i enjoyed the practices and treasures it more than those in the past.

how i wish he can be on the grand hall with us playing the grand music.
i truly hope that he would.
ps./ could anyone or whoever one help to make sure that my hope would come true?

-zinc

bloggin again.

took the award today at sembawang cc
well for today, went there early in the morning and was back a few mins ago.
for this week, it s a rather fun and enriching one.
the chinese new year is coming and most of the clothes i wanted was bought i would say except a few.

felt relaxed today perhaps after the previous day's.....
anyway i hope that the coming week would be a better one with me receiving good results for my tests.


ZINC

finally. its over.
its so long since i am able to take a long rest.

think i am going to reflect on my doings for this week.
firstly for today. feel like saying sorry to the ncc boys who are marching at ps today.
im sorry if my laughter was disrespectful to your.
im terribly sorry.

next i guess this week i had been pulling a long face towards things.
haiz its all because of me not being able to handle school and cca well.
hmm. i guess i have to buck up and prepare myself for the coming weeks.

SMILE. zinc.