Fear

Is it because of the evil things i had done in the past? Pls don't take those last items from me. Pls.

For these few days, whenever i am alone at home while my family is out and when my right eye starts to twitch, this is where my fear comes...
i prayed earnestly as my heart gets petrified and worried if anything bad fell on them.
Many times, these were accompanied with " pearls" down my eyes as the fear grew stronger and stronger.

I had never felt so worried about them than before and i guess is all because of the shock i got that sunday when i came back from the graveyard, after visiting an elder of mine.
The feeling of losing your dearest kin, was closely felt by me at the very moment when my sister told me the shocking news. Regret was felt at that very moment, i could have done....

For me, It's just hard for me to accept the fact that people around me are meeting up with mishaps and all when i am alright at those time. Perhaps one may thinks that i am ridiculous but i guess its just because the fact that they are the only i have now; my kins.

~ZINC~